A letter from Jul 4th, 2021

hey aarohi! this is a random one and I honestly don't know which year I'll be sending this to but hi! how r u doing? where r u in lifeee. yk me im tryna avoid the topic cuz I'm obviously writing this with sm motive. last we spoke I mean last I wrote nmm had happened with parv yk. but a few days back I'd texted him...like his mood was **** bad so I was checking in on him,,, and he said "okay :)" which is a really great thing!!! the thing is he hasn't opened what I responded to that till date *praying that as u read this there's no way u can scroll up to that message because of your massive chats below with loads of goofy selfies,and messages filled with lots of laughs, love and fun- I AM MANIFESTING IT* I mean it's messing with me soo bad. I really need you I mean me to tell me from the future "it does get better aarohi!" just wait a lil bit more...I mean I love him. and he s not evn my section anymore...am I just loosing him little by little? he misses me a lot too. but does he say smth? no. Im hoping that ur wayy ahead of this waiting period when u receive this. bc come on I deserve it. I hope that while u read this u can take a ss and send it to him 😚 and say, this is what was going on in my head in 10th standard when u were in mumbai ;). ik the day is coming near bc he does like me but he should say something and right now only I can convince myself. so right about now would be a good time for you to give me some motivation and dilasa. I'll be sending this to 17 yr old me, because it s been 2yrs since I liked him rn. let's see what happens in 2 more. of all the possible outcomes of this email I reallyy hope I don't unlock something you've been trying to hide or forget. is he still in ur Life?( I mean what ever happened after 10th...school change , did we stay in touch)? are we dating? I so hope we are I can't imagine life without him. I'm just ranting at this pt but I'll write anyways. ut 1 is **** near and I'm studying thoda thoda. are u taking care of yourself? because in 2021 I am starting to very slowly change my behavior and nature little by little to suit him better or in a way that is more prioritising toward him. I hope that's not the case for u- if it is I'm sure it's for the better :). but just remember we come above everyone else. okay? how r mamma papa anna? devyani must have graduated naa? and devavrat must be all old and "cool" please tell me it does get better cause I don't wanna lose him. honestly can't imagine my life without him anymore. pls tell me my period of waiting is over and we can be together. i miss him way too much :( also how r richa and I? like same school or diff and are we still as close? anyways take care of yourself. I love you the MOSTEST, always remember that ;) and remember who you are. don't lose yourself trying to impress someone else. mwah, 15 year old you, aarohi <3