A letter from Nov 20, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hey. it's been 7months & less than 2 weeks since he left. you're not okay, but atleast better than what u are months ago. you keep on thinking and reminiscing. everything remind you of him, he's everywhere—when in reality, he's not. we miss him so much. it's so dang hard to live a day without him. there's a lot of what ifs and regrets, words that left unsaid. we don't even have any idea if magkakaroon ng chance na masasabi ko lahat. every day, every night, I'm always wondering if he ever think abt me..as much as I do. may iba na kaya? ako pa rin ba? hm that's what I want for him, right? to be happy, to be happy even with someone else, even if it's not with me. all I want is for him to be happy, genuinely happy.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

hey. id hate to it admit it but uh, we’re on the...

Angia aiuntotis mesa. Mi rsryo. I ttrebe nwkno voulhsde'. Oull'y ayres se,y did eh to istme yman d(na meca eapsds be had idd who 3 he nokw addetesatv b,kca. Yoan al,gn meti iult msea osnaer outnam nawlana hgtni n:otctac) tub teh woh dan chmu lfe)t stih tiwh nyfun sa fo edpapehn he eretfdinf etnercly sa eht msite ng. Elevibe ’tdon ot hawt k,inht i lfee, to wkon ernymoa rigl, ot nda. Invereyhtg so si cdmaicoeplt. So mldoecptiac ’esh. In ltas su 'lli ssuge hsit meti eb ptu ti eht hsa ot niaiostut. Ti ot has end. The ot i vaeh eyccl kbrae.
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Kwon y,eh htat that dpuro ouy im surivngvi rfo fo. .